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Tuesday, February 28, 2006

so many assignments, so many projects and so many events.. headache and more headache.. but luckily solved one headache le.. called pearlyn last night.. apologised to her.. think she's still quite sad.. pray that she's alright and will be the cheerful pearlyn that we used to know..

hmm.. my eye candy is attached.. congratulated him.. but no more eye candy lo.. guess i hav to concentrate more on my studies instead of looking at cute guys le.. haha..

this afternoon, martin talked to me about alot of things on the DE Club and BEMSoc treasurer.. i'm really impressed with the things that he do.. systematic and organised.. he asked me if i wan to be his successor, i said i dun wan cos a lot of politics.. den he told me that everywhere will have politics so long there's presence of men.. he's right.. but i'm still considering if i hav sufficient time.. dun wanna make myself so busy le..

very tired.. try to sleep less.. but keep havin bad breakouts.. super upset... why are there pimplES?!!!! hate it!!!!! ok.. anyway, i need to sleep now.. goodnight...

gal gal cannot dream anymore..

# posted by Ev3 | 2/28/2006 12:37:00 am | 0 comments

Thursday, February 23, 2006

haPpy hOlidaYs.. bUt den keEp plaYing and diNt studY...>

21st feb

wenT for the VdaE treat at suNteC mArche.. plaYed some stupid games there while waitin for meisi.. dinT wan to play that forfeit oso.. buT really nothIng else that's fUn is there la.. oso need to wait for meisi ma.. hmm.. anyway, the lunch was alright since its a treat so cannot expect too much la ritE?.. haha.. but the game was exciting la.. can see pple try to avoid kissing each other.. good to see them more cheered up during that game session.. i'm so clevEr.. haHa.. thInk more of such bonding sessions will be very good.. shld jus organise more of such events..

after the lunch, the gals went for a shopping trip around suntec.. fUn to shop together.. but guess we spent too much time in 1 store le.. so, making me shop less and hav to go back home cos got to rush to tuition after that...

i almost had a heart attack when my tuition gal told me that she failed her maths algebra test la.. its like i felt very very guilty cos i only taught her for an hour the day be4 her test.. den now fail the test made me feel like a failure.. but well, i hav seen thru the paper.. its quite an easy to average paper.. she really shldnt fail the test.. sighx.. isabellA better work hard manx.. stop all the careless mistAKES!! if not i will definitely strangle her..

22nd Feb

went school to submit the english writing 2 draft in the morning.. den met WJ for lunch at Arts canteen.. reached dhoby ghaut at 140pm.. met pearlin to go shoPPin at town!!! den, we walked around plaza sing... walked quite long... before we proceed to heeren.. bought quite alot of things again.. 1 tube top, 1 skirt and some other accessories.. not bad la.. spent like less than 30 bucks.. hmm.. think i really noe how to save money..

den pear walked me to taka coffee bean.. cos i having group meeting for finance there.. sorry pEeps.. was late again.. dunno wads wrong with me.. always late one lor. shld try to change this bad habit manx.. if not, when i start working, i sure kena reprimand by my boss..

well anywya, after that i met bIng for dinner at cine kobaYashi den movie, final destnation3 after that.. nice movie.. shld go watch!! abit disgustin though.. saw arthur at cine.. so qiao.. he's going back to australia this fri night.. shld i go see him ofF? hmmm.. after movie we went home..

# posted by Ev3 | 2/23/2006 02:23:00 am | 0 comments

Monday, February 20, 2006

ShoPping is sO fuN...>

19th feb

woke up early in the morning at around 9am to rush to work at centrepoint.. was late by 15 mins cos i dint noe how to get to the staff entrance of robinsons.. in case u dun noe, i'm working at lancome yesterday la.. worked from 10am to 6pm.. my sales was like shit la.. so lousy, only 499.. expected alot more from this grade A counter lehx..

anyway, after work, i met wj for dinner at the cine pastamania.. felt really full from the meal.. den i met my pri sch friend, clarice, as well as 2 other jc friends at cine oso.. initially wasnt able to remember her name but i hav this feeling that i shld noe her.. so i figured out that she shld be from the same pri sch class as me as she wasnt from cedar.. haha.. anyway, it was nice to see her again.. face didnt change, but hairstyle is so funky now..

toked to them for a while before they went to catch their movie, pink panther.. den i shopped around at cine.. i never felt so fun shopping before.. bought quite a lot of stuff.. 2 tops, 1 dress, 5 earrings and 1 nail sticker accessory.. thInk i too deprived from shopping le.. haven went shopping ever since late dec i think..

met peiwen on my way home.. saw her on the NEL train.. den realised that she stays super near my hse.. we talked for quite a while abt DE clUb la.. think our conclusion was not to be so stupid and joined the club next sem.. haHa..

I wan Go kBox.. anyone wants to accompany me?? can listen to my beautiful voice oOo.. interested parties please calL me at 9***0***... hEex..

realLy love the clothes that i bought.. hEex..

haPpy gaL in her own simple world..

20th feb

my very first day to play ever since term break started 2 days ago.. very fast, it is gonna end le.. hmm.. so many things to do yet so little free time to complete.. guess i shld practise better time management to cope with the heavier workloads in future.. sighs..

wanted to study finance and law one.. but seems like i dint do much lehx.. sighs.. wasted my time slacking again la.. shucks.. think sleep too much will oso leads to u became lazier ba.. think i slept for abt 9 hours from last night.. den feelin very tired now.. so can anyone tells me wads the best number of hours to sleep??

i think i better stop blogging too much.. getting so naggy and raising so many stupid questions lately...

can anyone tells me how to make the blog with music.??

laLa caNNot play le.. neEds to staRt mugGin liaox...

# posted by Ev3 | 2/20/2006 04:29:00 pm | 0 comments

Saturday, February 18, 2006

SDE day, Bash and Econs Test>

15th Feb (SDE daY)

dint go sch today cos no lessons.. but today is Sde daY, where there's sort of a fun fair at Sde, so i went to check it out in the late afternoon.. the 'garden' walkway had large tentage along the path.. but dunno is it i reach too late le, the place looks very empty.. hMm.. probably due to the rain earlier that dispersed the crowd..

saw xiao yun, meisi they all so sat down at the the biz booth and talked to them for a while.. the booth was set up to allow pple to return the tix that they were asked to sell for the bash.. hmm.. from wad i saw on the book, not alot of pple returned the tix.. really dunno how the bash will turn out..

went over to the forum to meet SY and nickY for the SS project work at around 5pm.. at around 7pm, SY treated me to a dinner buffet at GenKi.. dinT expect him to realLy treat me thaT meal.. tHaNx anyway.. but i dint really help him alot with the flowers.. guEss i eaRned myself a meal..

felt very paiseh becos he actuaLLy doesnt really eat JaPanEse food one.. deN he oso doesnt eat raw so feel quite bAd abt it.. but it was fuN la.. suaN-ing each other.. cos i need to leave early for tuition so dint eat alot.. 2 of us only ate 18 plates if i'm not wrong.. shld eat the lunch buffet den can digest better.. heex.. anYwaY, sms hIm to thaNk hiM for the treat after i got onto the bus..

aftEr tuition.. i came home to study the SS ppt presentation.. prepared notes for the required slides den chat for a while oso... tooK kinda loNg as i was printing econs notes. den in the end only slept around 5am.. siGhs.. dunno why so late den sleep oso.. hMmm.. wad was i doin aR?

16 Feb (pPt + BasH)

woke uP at 8am, slept 3 hours only.. den prepare to go sch for law lecture at 10am.. after that from 1-2pm, my SS group tried to rehearse for our presentation at the benches outside the Biz classroom.. Nicky and I were rather nervous.. HonGjie was the most calm one.. lOoked rather confident.. thInk the presentation dint do very well.. suB-standard onLY.. siGhx.. scored a rathEr lousY score of 72..

after that went for exotic dance at YiH.. aS usual, i was late tut only end punctually at 5pm.. deN revised the moves cos i learnt before already.. quite fuN, hope i become less fat.. i wan to be skinnY~~!!!! cos i think the moves are more suitable for skinny pple.. haHa...

after the lesson, i went home to prepare to go for the bash later at clUb mOmo.. on the way home, artHur calleD.. he asked for 2 more tiX as his friends are coming.. aH biNg also smsed me to go dinner.. but told him i going home for dinner, asked him if he would like to come over to my sch's bash.. he asked if that was considered as me dating him out.. den i replied him that if he wants to, it is lor.. so he came to my bash too... so haPPy!! suddenly sellin so many tix..

while i was having dinner, alvin called me to say that he is coming to my bash oso with his officers in the camp.. so haPPy.. bIng took a cab to pick me up from my house from there we den went to central mall.. reached at around 945pm.. was rather empty and quiet.. theiR sEcurity suX so much that it jus pissed me off totalLY.. HellO.. u gUys are onlY bouncers, do u all need to be so arrogant and ruDE.. suX maNx.. i will nv go MOMo again.. NeVEr!! zoUk is like how much better than them la..

anywaY, i got in with biNg.. really very empty.. onlY had very few tables were with pple.. den alot of bachelors.. they jus seem so desperate.. i suddenly felt like i shldnt hav come.. well.. anyway, played pool with bIng.. was kinda distracted during the game cos i need to direct and bring arthur with his friends in..

after he came, he saw the situation and asked if we want to go the doUble O, whicH we be better than that place la.. but i dint wan to cos its my sch's bash ma.. how can i do that rite? well, he left the place with his 2 other friends to double O.. we sent them off den we went to a kTv pUb there to sing.. fUn!! that was my first time there.. so FuN!! like it alot.. thInk i may frequent there more often than club.. haHa..

halF or more of the niGht, i was actualLy drinkIng and sinGiNg there.. haHa.. cos mOmo reallY suX.. the crowd CMI at all.. i juS felt so bad asking my friends to come.. esp when they said they wanted me to recommend chiobus to him.. the thinG is the club has not many ladies.. more guys actually.. siGhx.. in the end they oso left at around 2 am..

tHe bash failed terriblY la.. but i really dint hav the heart to tell pEi wen that it was my worst clubBing sessiOn.. cos i can see that she realLY put in alot of effort into this event.. perhaps they shld not hav chosen that date and that place.. the date is simply too near to out mid term tests and momo is too big for our faculty.. they shld get smaller clubs, like double O.. hMm..
okay la.. saw some Sde pple druNk.. den quite funny lor.. like Yun lOng, serenE, arthuR and matthew oso.. hMmm.. heard MartIn also druNk.. but dint get to see it.. wasted sia..

mE and JoshuA at MomO..

thIs is ah bIng.. mY cousiN..

wE are at the Ktv PUb..
me, binG, ryaN, .. and arthur..

afTer pUb, went back mOmo a while be4 we go home.. tiring night. slept at around 4am..

17th Feb

wokE up a 8am to go sch for englishat ten am.. den met YC after that.. told her i'm not going for BU, going somewhere to study.. so we went to the cafe at Uni Hall.. quite quiet place.. nice environment.. had a big cup of coffee be4 i can really study econs.. den cos hungry so we went to sci canteen to eat.. after lunch, we studied at sci library.. quiet place to study but too cold le.. thInk hav to wear 3 jackets if i need to study there comfortably..

studied until 8 plus pm.. den went home.. continued to study at home until 12 am.. really very sleepy..

18th Feb (ECons Test)

slept until 7am.. woke up to study econs.. den left house at 12pm.. felt very dumb.. keep travelling in and out of NuS.. shld jus stay there for good.. save my travellin time.. shall stay there next sem if i'm given a chance to.. hMm..

the test was quite tricky but do-able la.. dunnoe how would i fare manx.. very worried.. MaY God bless me with a decent result... sleepY noW... tired manx.. this havoc week is finally going to be over.. i'm so glad that term breaks is here.. hapPy!!!!!!!

gaL gaL likes hOlidaY.!!! huRraY!!!! hEex..

# posted by Ev3 | 2/18/2006 06:45:00 pm | 0 comments

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

wAd a tiriNg VdAE!>

caMe early in the morning to school to do my English Writing 1 cos need to be submitted later during tutorial.. deN met kiT wan at around 11am to deliver the bouquets.. thanx kitwan for being so kind as to help us deliver 2 bouquets.. really very sweet of him.. he dropped me at the hall den i help SY to deliver the flowers to his "girL friend".. its like the gal doesnt seem to be surprised when she saw the flowers.. she had a sleepy look .. think she's kinda tired... vEry sweet lookin and pretty girl frienD that SY has.. haha.. purposely added in these to suan him.. anyway, he wanted to buy me dinner tonight but i couldnt cos of the flowers delivery..

enG tut from 1-3pm.. after that bought my brunch to the DE room and eaT.. deN quickly at 330pm went to deliver flowers with Joshua's uncle.. musT realLY thaNk his uncle for the service... he got 2 shifts.. he drove from 830am to 230pm den from 330pm until 9pm.. Wa... its 12 hours leh!!! den paid him 110 instead of 85bucks cos of overtime.. shld finished by 6pm but dragged until 9pm.. making both of us no dinner.. sighx.. i was thinking of giving 120 but think biz comm got budget so dint give.. hMM.. anyway, he's nice..

had quite a few gals were a little shocked and very happy when they saw the flowers.. very cute reaction.. haHa.. den i must say the flowers are reallly wrapped until very pretty.. gOOd QC that meisi has.. really admire her for that.. finally found someone who is even more perfectionist than me.. gooD!!

oVErall.. i thInk the vdae event has succeeded.. i do hav a sense of satisfaction but not as much as i had when i was in JC organising events too.. i dunno how much our profits are but i hope it will be at least 1000 so as to make all our efforts worthwhile..

At this pt in time, i really want to thank Meisi (I/C) for putting so much effort and responsibility in this event.. thank Jasmine for always being there for Meisi.. Thank Khala and Meisi again for wrapping the flowers overnight yesterday.. realLY really appreciate alot of their hard work.. i hope they dint tire themselves too badly.. i oso wan to thank the comm members for beinG there.. aLL were present.. but i specially want to thank Xiao YUn and oso Diana and Tong and cHaur Jih and Kenny and Matthew and Joshua and Kit Wan and Mei Si and Jasmine.. which is EveRybody who has made this event a success.. i oso want to SPECIALLY THANK Martin and Pei Ling for making the effort to come down to SDE on Sunday to help us wrap the flowers.. really reallly thank them for that... i jus wan to say i'm very glad that this event was a team effort.. it seems like everybody is contributing to their utmost esp Meisi and jasmine.. aT thiS valentine's daY, I jus wan to say thaT i love theM loTs.. muAckS!!!!!

HappY vdAE to u and to me.. eveN thoUGh my vdae was lonelY, it was a meaningful one.. i'm jus satisfied that i have such a great team in vdae comm..

Little gal jus wants to braG about her cOmm in the dreaM.. haHax

# posted by Ev3 | 2/14/2006 11:24:00 pm | 0 comments

Monday, February 13, 2006

SupER STRESS!!!!!!>

i'm super busy and super stress now.. whoever that provokes me shall not survive.. anyway, that's jus a way to release my stress a little..

So many thIngs to do.. so little time to do them.. i really really cannot take it le.. so many things undone.. my 3 tuts supposed not donE! my test haven study! my ppt presentation not finished! my flowers not finished wrapping!! and i still hav to go for the Bash.. dunno why must it has to be on thurS!! why cant it be next thurS or fri or sat?!?!!! wHy?! shld i go?? i wonder..

i realLY kinda regret joining DE club.. cos the pple arent helpful when there are so many things to do.. can u imagine 2 gals (me and jasmine) carrying so many many flowers and 2 boxes of roses back from the wholesale to NUS????? can u?! we are how small-sized can?! and fancy only the 2 of us carrying so many stuffs back without the help of the guys in our committee?? wAD crap la.. den wad's worst is.. not being appreciated by the pple who came later.. i really very angry leh.. aint they be shameful that when they should turn up but they didnt?! how could they??

how sucky la.. i really feel so tired and stressed out by all these things.. these events are sacrificing my studieS!! and i'm on the verge of breaking down already.. i feel really weak now, emotionally as well as physically.. cant do my hmk well becos mind stop functioning.. i really feel like cryiNg.. i jus want to cry and scream out loud.. want to scream until i hav no energy but i cant spare even that little time doin these.. i hav no time..!!!

little gal tells herself to be strong in realising her dreams...

# posted by Ev3 | 2/13/2006 01:35:00 am | 2 comments

Friday, February 10, 2006

Busy Day...>

Really really very busy..

Haven finished the ppt for my SS module for next thurs.. hoW????!!!
But right noW, i'm still doing my Vdae and Bash stuff.. wad crap?!!! i really feel very stressed leH.. as if i'm gonna get suffocated, feelin very breathless.. alot of things to do.. but very little time for me.. seems to be very rush.. deN on sat i'm having econs mid term test 40% weightage sia..

I hope Vdae and Bash will turn out well becos its the FIRST and SECOND event for BIz cOmm.. dun waN to screw it up.. i waNt them to be successful.. deN i will be able to concentrate on my studies and start mugging for this Semester...!!!

Sighx... whY do i kiLl myself with so many activitieS? am i nutS? tHink i haV to perserVE.. that's one of the motto that cedarians are tauGht..
jiA yOu to myself and yOu oso!!!!! hEEx..

Little gaL talking nonsense again.. dreaming of better future..

# posted by Ev3 | 2/10/2006 08:53:00 pm | 0 comments

Thursday, February 09, 2006

thE daY came..>

We broke up...

iTs nobody's fault as what he has put it.. we are just very different in our thinking and character.. bUt i'm really very sure that he is going to make a very good husband in future..

we went to watch "i'm not stupid too" around evening time at marina.. He said that night there would have fireworks at esplanade.. after the show we packed some fast food and made our way to esplanade.. we talked alot.. he realised how i was thinking.. both of us felt that we couldnt see any future if we continue like this, so conclusion is to break up.. even though both of us hurt alot, this is the only choice that we can choose...

hE said i'm clinging on alot on the past which i think is really very true.. i love him alot alot alot.. love him so much that i really made him my laogong.. we was so so sweet to me.. buyIng my favourite drink for me when he comes my house.. realLy miss alot of small small things that he will do for me..

somehow that feeling disappears.. i no longer love him as much as before.. i cant commit my life to him oso.. perhaps its my age.. siGh..

iF fate permits, peRhaps we may get back together again next time..

Small gaL dreamIng of her own perFect world..

# posted by Ev3 | 2/09/2006 07:47:00 pm | 0 comments

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

i dun waNt to groW up..>

不想长大

为什么就是找不到无邪的玫瑰花
为什么遇见的王子都不够王子啊
我并不期盼他会有玻璃鞋和白马
我惊讶的是情话竟然会变成谎话

为什么幸福的青鸟要飞的那黱高
为什么苹果和拥抱都可能是毒药
我从没想过有了他还孤单的可怕
我突然想起从前陪我那个洋娃娃

我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大后我就会失去他
我深爱的他深爱我的他
已经变的不像他

我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远都笨又傻
我不想我不想不想长大
长大后我就会失去他
我深爱的他深爱我的他
怎么会爱上别个他

# posted by Ev3 | 2/08/2006 03:21:00 pm | 0 comments

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

daUGhtEr's namE shaLL be...>

nExt timE, i shaLL nAme mY dauGhter as En Ci (mErcy).. thOugHT its a verY meaniNGfuL and niCe to listeN name..
foR my sOn, i haVen found any gooD namEs yet.. shaLL thInk abt it.. hMm..

# posted by Ev3 | 2/01/2006 12:07:00 am | 0 comments