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Monday, January 30, 2006

haPPy cHineSE nEw yeAR!!!>

thiS is a diFFerent nEw yEar..

FirstLy, mY famiLY rEached my faTher's side plaCe rathEr late.. thInk onLY reachEd at around 2 plus pm.. den when we reached therE, moStly all gone le.. qUitE feW ppLe thEre.. den we sat down and ate our lunch.. thInk we onLY staYed thEre for abt an houR, den we left the plaCe le.. coS we nEEd to go down to mY mothEr's side uncle's house..

mY faThEr drove us down from paSir riS to semBawaNg, where my unclE lives... wE weRe rathEr earlY coS not many has arrivEd.. wheN we reachED, we saw them playIng mahJong... haNds got a little itch... so not lonG after i reached, i oso sat down to play.. my first round is PIng Hu lehx.. very lucky.. but next few rounds, not very good liaox.

anYwaY, i recieved compliments from few of my aunties thaT i Looked really pretTy.. one of theM thought that i was my bro's gf becos she cant recognise me.. doTx.. thaT's kinda absurd.. i dint change alot ofrom last year mahx.. did i? hMmm.... but my another auntie oso said my sister and i changed alot le.. gettIng pretTier le.. hhEex.. gooD complimentS.. =) some of my cousinS also felt the same way.. one told my sis that i became prettier and skinnier le... oKay.. i shaLL staY it thaT waY manx.. loVe my reD drEss.. hEex.. nicE and simplE thouGh may make me lOOk more mature..

i played mahjong until around 5 plus pm.. den started singing karoake.. quite fun.. sing until now abit sore throat le.. but dint feel that i have sung enuff.. reallY wan to go kBox leh!!! haHa.. den i sing until 8pm before i hav my steamboat dinnEr... niCE food.. but got scolded by grandma for having such late dinner.. hMm.. anywaY, i left the place at around 1030pm.. took cab hOme witH my 2 other cousins.. theY goinG some clUb at seranGoOn gardEn.. sInce its along the way, so we jus go together lor.

tmR shalL be another slackINg daY for me.. tiNK its time i start studying after the CNY hols.. hMmm.. hoW do i Look in This Photo?

liTtle gaL staYs in her dreamland..

# posted by Ev3 | 1/30/2006 12:42:00 am | 1 comments

Saturday, January 28, 2006

i'M soRRy dear..>

i fEel sO angry wiTh myselF.. wAds wroNg wiTh mE? wAD do i reaLLy wanT frOm hiM?! iTs hiS bdAe, anD i actuaLLy ruIned iT toTallY.. smaShed hiS heArt..i realLy dinT waN thaT to happeN.. i SweaR i did not..

whY did i not get hIm anY prEsenT for his bDae?
mY excuSe is thaT i dInt noe waD to geT hIm (even up till now i stilL duNNoe wAd i shld get).. bUt in the enD, i stIll turned up with a chocolate fudge cake..

whY didnT i feel like goinG out with him even though its his bdAE?
mY reasON is that i dUN hav a present for hiM den it's like reallY very weird to jus eat lunch with hiM.. anOther reasoN is also because hiS familY is havINg a reunion dinnEr togethEr, how could i ask him out for dinnER?

whY did my loVe foR hiM deteriorate so much?!
hE usEd to be my prioriTy.. i loVed hiM so much thaT i was also very shocked.. wAd happenEd noW? is iT becoS our livEs haV became so routined and monotonous thaT it dEcreaSes my love for hiM?

his attituDe towards me..
juS verY haPpy and eXcited and want to maximise the time spent with me.. so loNg i am beside him, he will be very glad.

mY aTTitude towarDS him..
quite colD.. not as haPpy as before.. hAv liTtle urge to see hIm.. i duN like to see him sad or angry, i wanT him to be haPPy.. buT in the end i made myself moRe tiRed... even thoUgh i may not feel like doing some things, i do them for his sake.. because i'm afraid to see him unhapPY or angry or depressed.. i duNno wads wrong with me.. i'm too calm on the pHone.. thaT's the scariest part.. i seeM to be expeCtin all thEse to happeN alreadY..

he saiD if our love last time was 100%, now is only 10 %.. aLthoUgh his loVe foR me maY haV increaseS, my loVe for him hAs dEcreASeD in leaps and bounds.. i tolD hIm i osO duNnoe whY that happened (but i'm lying i think).. i thiNK i noe the reason.. but anywaY, i tolD hiM its beCause oF the too routinEd liFestylE.. hE aGrEed to a certain eXtenT thaT hE iS unablE to brinG me around (becoS goiNg out = spending money).. hE is kinDa pooR noW and he confEsses thaT it wiLl continuE to be like daT for at least another 2 years.. howevEr, i told hiM eveN wiThout moneY we are stiLl ablE to do othEr simplE thINgs, like kite flying.. he kinDa geT waD i meant.. but he saiD he's onLY 10% confident of giving me thE kinD of lifestylE and relationship thaT i wanT.. meaniNg, in future, it wiLL moSt probably (90%) be in the samE situation as now..

haIx..i'm reaLly surpriSed that i dint cry.. most of the time, i will cry.. i dint noe why i dint shed any tears.. i am even more confident of the things i feel..

i'm very sorry about the contradiction.. in somE sensE, i feel that i hav misled him.. last timE before we got together, i told him i'm lookin for a long-term relationship.. i wanted to find a husband, not jus a boyfriend.. he took up that mentality of beinG my long-term pArtnEr, makinG me hiS prioriTy in his liFe.. yEt mE, alwaYs makIng him as my opportuniTy cosT (last resort)..by right i shld not have yearn for any more freedom.. i shlD juS put him as my utmost important person in my life (since he's gonna be the person who will be by me for the next 50 years).. howEver, maybe its becos of my age, i'm not prepared to sacrifice my freedom, my friends and my commitments for his sake.. my mentality is i'm still so yOung, how caN i forgo sO manY thIngs jus to be with him?!??!? how to?? i reaLLy cannot.. i wanT to enjoY life, i wanT to experiencE alot of othEr thIngs..i caNt jus let go jus becos i need to accompany him?!!
on the other hand, i likes the way he dotes me, making me feel that i'm the most impt person in his life.. he always giveS in to me even thouGh my request may not be reasonable..
iN liFe, theRe's no such thiNgs to have the best of both worldS.. ofteN, we can onLy chooSe onE and sacrifice the othEr.. thiS is realLy diFFicult.. lEt mE tinK about it..

liTtle gaL dreaMIng in hEr owN worlD..

hoW i wiSH i wiLl nv grow uP den i wiLl not haV to faCe sucH trouBleS and problems.. i wanT to liVe in mY own dreams..

# posted by Ev3 | 1/28/2006 11:16:00 pm | 1 comments

Friday, January 27, 2006

wAd a buSy Day?!!!>

toDay iS a supER siaNx daY for Me.. firsTlY, i slepT reaL "earlY", at abt 530am.. deN wokE up at abT 820am.. I waS doIng mY pPt foR the presentatiOn at thE EnglisH moDule.. deN i rEached scH at abt 10am and waS reaLLy quITe sleEpy.. osO realised thaT i haD a liTtle soRe throat.. aNywaY, i dINt perform well aT the prEsentaTion la.. feeling kinDa suckY abT it, but lOokIng back thaT it onlY constitutEs 5markS, i felT sliGhtly bettEr.. afteR enGlisH leSson was mY BU leCture.. wAs seriousLY FAlLIng aSleep cos Bu is REAl borinG..i triEd to listeN, but i dUn reaLLy understand lehx.. hMMm.. afTer thE lectuRe we kindA puBliciSe the bouquetS thaT we made yesterday.. wE took the bouquets ouT from the DE room and brought to the lecture halL for pPle to loOK at.. neXt came the biZ coMm meetiNg regardinG the recenT uPcomINg eventS.. eVEry IC of the event had to giVE a suMmary and most updated info aBt their events.. theY osO toOK this opportunITy to ask foR assistance in any waY that they nEed.. Bash pplE osO had a meetINg, loOKs like it was almost fuLl strenGth unlikE vDae's.. anywaY, i reaLLy hopE thAt aLL ouR evenTs wiLl bE succeSsfuL despIte the pAcked schedule.. 14th Vdae, 15th SDE Day and 16th SDE Bash.. afteR meetINg, we went mAcs for lunch.. I solD 1 trial bouquet to zi hOng at 15 bucks.. felT quite proud abt it.. becoS the bouquet that hiS gf took was the one that i wrappEd.. realLy felT a gReat sense of satisfactiOn.. deN the othEr 2 bouquetS were brought back by pEiweN and Serence respectively to heLp me puBliciZe.. 12 white rosEs bouquEt 12 ReD roses boUqueT

# posted by Ev3 | 1/27/2006 11:45:00 pm | 0 comments

nEw Blog>

Okay.. thiS shalL be MuaH's bLog.. hAd too manY Blogs until i alSo abit blUr untiL *aheM* asked me if this was my bLog.. haha.. weLL.. i actuaLLy forgOt abT thiS at all.. noW dat i cheCked, i thInk i realLy very bLur..

k.. let's start bloGging.. BusY daY!!! woKe uP eaRlY in the morning for my morning 10am Law lecture. deN went to Biz Fac to meeT tErenCe for lUnch.. hE waS laTe by 1 mInute.. whilE i was earlY.. reallY rare to see me earlY lehx.. wELl.. deN wantEd to gO to sHeareS haLL one.. buT deN no timE le, i haV to go for my lEsSon at 2pm.. (so paIseh.. i stiLl duNno where is SheareS haLL loR).. aFter 3 hours of tUt, wenT bacK to SDE to take photos oF the fLowErs.. deN meiSi and Khala have to go.. sO left mE to wrap the whiTE rosEs bouquet.. i fEel quitE prouD of iT lehx.. coS the pictures loOk reaLLy not bAd.. deN wad haPPened was actuaLLy there should be a meetIng at LR427 for the standing committee one.. buT alL paNg sei.. sinCE no biZ pple goin, so i stayed in the DE club room to wrap floWers lor.. bUt deN felt abIt bad.. so wenT to the lectuRe wiTh my dEar after i finisHed wrappINg..
thE meEtIng was abT pubLicity and marketiNg conducted by Danny and Arun respectively.. rEallY sounds very prO.. buT den by the timE i reachEd, 3/4 of the sessions gone le.. buT reaLly very sianx.. no wonder nobody came.. oPS.. shHH... the eFforT was appreciated though..
the meeting ended at abt 820pm.. and i still haven had my dinner.. promiSe my dear to go marina Bay to celebrate his bdae with his other pri sch friends.. so no choice hav to go.. den got to break my golden rule of not eating after 8pm.. we tOok a cab down from SDE to marina.. and by the time we reached, i think it is around 9pm le.. sAt down, got the food, BBq the food.. i thInk i was kinda tired and sianx.. no entertainment.. so i acted sTupid in front of guO shenG and dear.. hoW daRe guO shenG calliNg me spaStic.. haHa. but it was la.. supposed to be that way actually.. cos too boring le.. den nobody entertain me.. so no choice.. entertain myself.. was there until abt 1120pm.. before Royston (dear's pri sch friend) fetched me to outram park mrt station..
Oh. one more thIng is.. mY blacK diaMond heelS spoilt le.. the sTrap came off.. den have to walk barefooted from outram park mrt to home.. thInk gals waLK withOut shoes looK kinda sexy wor.. haHa.. anywaY, that was adapted from somebody else's..
after i go homE, dear and his friends went on to have the second part of the programme... hopE u guys hav fuN.. mE gotta come home to edit my pPt otherwise tmr's presentation diE!! noW finished doinG ppT le.. so heRe am I happilY bloggiNg awaY..
heEx..

dO i loVE blogGIng? hMm.. we shaLl See...

liTtle gaL dreaMing alone agaIN..

# posted by Ev3 | 1/27/2006 02:17:00 am | 3 comments

Monday, January 02, 2006

NeW yeAR 2006>

Jus finished celebrating mY bdAe and the earlier ChristmAs.. musT say thaT i dinT enjoY as much as i hAd in these 2 impt days as compared to the previous years.. vEry disappOinted.. reaLLy soBx..
waD happenEd is that i will always have a party on my bdAe.. as It happens to fall oN a very populaR datE.. hoWever, becos this yeAR i really feel very tired to organise such parties, den realised nobody (except my boy) asked me out on my bdAe.. SoBX soBx... hoW comE like dat one?!?! haiX..
but luckilY, peePs from UCC helped me to celebrate beforehand le, so dinT feel like kiLLing myself yet.. osO my bOy was with me on my bdAe, dats why not that baD..

mY these few days weRe quite hapPeninG... theY were as folloWed:
29th - UCC chalet
31st - my bdAe + new yeaR countdown
1st - neW yeaR

29Th dEc
thE chalet was reaLLy fuN.. i thInk i reached the place at around 3 plus pm.. waS very QiaO to meet CharissA at the eUnos mRt, peArlYn and muGanT on the traIN.. hMm.. den wheN we reacHed theRe, i was pretTy stunnEd as i dint noE maNy pPLe theRe.. iT waS quite scarY at firsT la.. den most pple were watchiNg the shoW on HBO channel, while otheRs were playIng mahjONg at one corner.. wEll.. guEss wad i do? haha.. no la.. nothiNg happenIng.. i was lOokinG at them playiNg mahjOng lor.. lOoking aT abEl's tilEs.. abEl at one round become xiao xiang gong.. den no choice cannot win le.. deN he oso dun feel like playiNg.. i wanTed to take over his place to play but then a guy camE ovEr and joined the game.. weLl. abit sad initiallY.. but then sanchia gave up his place to play too.. so i cAN play agaIn.. hehex.. anyway, the guy's name was terenCE..
peArlyN asked me to teach her mahjoNg but i dint nOe where to start as the game was rather complicating and hard to teach while playinG it.. hMm.. bUt i tried to teach her thiNgs like "pONg" and "chi".. thInk i still failed to teach her well as she left to join the pictionary game..
hMmm. dint play mahJOng for reallY very loNg.. since Jc1 i think... actualLy i'm really not pro.. but i do noe how to game using the easiest method.. haha.. howeveR, i dinT win at all when i was playiNg with chu hua, a Team maNageR and terenCe.. think tErenCe is too pro le lA.. mE onLy beginnER standard, somemore nV play for such a loNg timE.. how to be hiS match leh?!? hMm.. anyway>.. hE's kinda friendly la.. cos he actually teaChes me hoW to plaY durIng the ovErnigHT mahjoNg sessiOn we hav got..
It is reaLLy fUn to keep wiNning wheN he's arounD.. he taUGht me the technique and the kind of mentaLIty to haVe while plaYing.. He osO tauGht me how to couNt the "tai".. coOl.. fUN gamE!... thInk i abiT addictEd liaO.. haHx.
thaT chalet was fUn.. i kinDa enjOyed mysElf.. glAd thaT i hav staYed ovEr.. haPPy bDae to mE.. hEeX..

LittLe gaL dreaMIng in thE smaLL littLe world..

# posted by Ev3 | 1/02/2006 04:09:00 pm | 0 comments