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Saturday, September 30, 2006

tears jus keep rolling down uncontrollably..>

wHy?? why didnt u reply my sms.? i know you r busy.. but replying a yes or a no isnt that tough ritex?? i am jus so disappointed with u.. cant u understand that sometimes love jus cant forgive certain things tt u do, especially when done repeatedly.. I have never cry so many times in the 1st mth of a relationship.. NEVER EVEr.. This is the 1st time to cry 3 times in a mth..

why did u walk into my life when u cant even promise to take good care of me?? why did u make me walk into ur life den to realise that it isnt tt perfect afterall.. why did u let me fall for u and make me so painful like dat..?? why are u so cruel to me? so unfair to me? cant u understand tt i jus wan to spend and celebrate this special day with u?

by not replying me, u are making me unable to conentrate on doing my work. All my mind is about u.. about whether u will be able to make it for the dinner.. abt whether i will be going out later or i will be studying later.. how come replying my sms is so difficult?

tears keep rolling and rolling from my eyes to my cheeks.. i jus feel so awfully painful.. i guess if i nv put in so much effort and so much thoughts into today's plans, i shld feel less painful..

yes.. u are very selfish.. u only think for urself.. u nv think from my pt of view and my perspective.. whenever u wan to go out, it's natural for me to hav time for u.. but whenever i wan to go out or watch a movie, it always seem so much like an indulgence for me to hav u beside me..

i have nv watch a movie with u.. this is the most ridiculous part of the relationship.. i have nv have a relationship that doesnt watch movie during the 1st mth..

whenever u call me, it is always abt DE Club.. if u wan to be the president, i will support u.. but stop making our conversations to revolve around this topic.. i hate it.. we always have conflicting ideas on these issues.. but i dun wan to quarrel with u abt such stuff..

why are u so busy when u are not even the head of that project? why the hell are u so pia.. sacrificing me.. so cruel of u.. jus for selling tix at ur friend's party u rejected my invitation to ask u out for a celebration.. it makes me ponder why the hell do i go to the trouble of buying u present.. do i hav alot of time?? no!! i dun!! i hav alot of projects oso.. but i still make time for u.. as for u.. u always think of me only when u have nuthing else to do...

am i important to u? i really doubt so.. this shld actually be a happy 1 mth celebration but becos of u.. u ruin my plans.. ruin all my beauiful thoughts.. i really hav no idea how i am goin to forgive u.. even if i do forgive u, i am really unsure if u will become like dat next time.. i have lost my confidence in u..

u lost my trust den now u lose my confidence... what else are u going to let me lose in the future?

how did i get myself into such state?? i shldnt hav agree to be ur gf in the 1st place..

waste time; waste energy; waste effort

having a very bad headache now.. u are the cause of it.. u ruin this relationship..

# posted by Ev3 | 9/30/2006 06:22:00 pm | 0 comments

happy 1 mth? not really..>

has been lookin forward to this day for quite sometime.. but den everything jus blows becos he has too many things to do and the best thing is he said he probably wun enjoy it..

I'm thinkin.. great! u spoilt all my mood.. dat's it. i hav told u 1 week in advance to tell u to leave this time for me.. yet.. u did this to me.. i am so utterly hurt and disappointed..

u said u love me.. but how much do u really love me? even if u said alot, i'll probably doubt it.. why did u always put me as the last choice/alternative? why do u always leave the unwanted time to me?? am i even in ur priority? tell me no.. and i will do less things for u..

how could u be like dat?? before we got together u promised all the stars in the sky.. now that i am already yours, ur attitude changes totally.. do u noe u treat me quite terrible.. i really cannot understand.. shld i not made myself yours.. shld i not have agreed so fast? shld i jus noe u alittle better? shld i jus leave u alone.. and accompany u only when u wan me to? shld i??

despite my busy schedule, i went to bugis specially to buy u present for this 1 mth anniversary.. yet.. this is what i get?! i cant see u and cant pass u the gifts today.. den wad for i went thru so much trouble and time to painstakingly buy these? why??

sorry.. maybe its mood swing.. i hope iwill forget this soon.. i hope u can jus treasure me alittle more.. put me into ur priority list.. otherwise, i cant imagine wad r the possible things tt i can do..

# posted by Ev3 | 9/30/2006 11:52:00 am | 0 comments

Sunday, September 03, 2006

his name is Jen..>

30th Aug.. We are attached officially.

31st Aug.. We went out for normal supper

1st Sep.. We were at Singapore River and I kissed hIm..

2nd Sep.. I went for Vela outing to celebrate Wei Chen and Aron's bdae.. He came to pick me from Marina Square.. I accompanied him and his friends for supper and then later a small drinking session of Jolly Shandy.. He drove me back at abt 3am.. I slept at 430am..

3rd Sep.. Went to school for ES presentation.. Met hIm to study together in SDE at 2pm.. Went to his hall to study at 6pm.. Took a cab back at 10pm..

He's terribly sweet.. I'm so in love with hIm..

Oh no! i Feel so goNe case now..

I'm no longer lala.. but Ms Jen..

# posted by Ev3 | 9/03/2006 02:05:00 am | 0 comments